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  • Writer's pictureMichael Main

sculling inconsonant rivers . . .

The relationship with our ‘personal’ past is fraught with complexity.

Vast and shifting responses to one’s past are a natural given- and the complexity remains throughout life. Comprehension deepens, while one becomes genuinely conversant with integrating such manifold depths.

Leaving a city to relocate creates a permanent “gains and losses” palpable reference point which one can “sit up against” later in life . . . as if putting one’s back to a tree in any season of body and spirit.

It is an emotiometabolic experience, sitting against that tree- for one’s whole world is sensed before one, both the past and the present.

The past is visible, yet invisible. The past is the very base of that tree which presently supports one’s back. At times one wants to beat it with a stick. At times one would want to fully embrace it without restraint- but just as suddenly one finds that one no longer can, which brings on a swift, startling grief.

All this said, the experience of the flux of ‘present past’ qua living is an utterly absorbing endeavor. One learns to relax, to accept. For there would seem to exist some ineffable stream- an eternal, underground current of life supporting energy, a river of foundational consciousness flowing beyond cities, seasons, identities. Its causal ripples seek us out, bleaching the bones of former selves in the backwash.

One cannot step down: the footing turns in the silts. Learn to float. Seek of the sun, shining just now, radiant above all tousling of water.


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